it's 8 am. i am surprised that i woke up this early. the coffee is so warm now, it's not even hot. i like it that way, warm. i've been sleeping on my couch for a coupla nights now. why the sudden fetish for small spaces? ahhh. i don't know. i ask myself the same question.
my rose plant is starting to grow leaves again. sophie b. hawkins is playing in my head... it felt like springtime, on this february morning.....
in a little while i will go to my scared place - the bathroom. then i'll think happy thoughts. {no perve, not THAT kind of happy thoughts. too early. and besides i am not in the mood}. think about the people i love. my goals for today. the people i will meet today... that sorta thing. happy thoughts.
i like the quiet in the mornings. it gives me time to collect my thoughts and clean it up a bit. 'coz i know the rest of the day it will be all in a puddle. i look at the tanka on the wall and i could see all the 37 buddhas in quiet meditation. such bliss. i wish i could be like that, sometimes. multiplied and blissful (all 37 of me). life would be easier for me if there were 37 of me.
- one doing the work
- one doing the learning
- one hedonistic me
- one philosophical me
- one monogamous me
- one polygamous me
- one agnostic me
- one atheistic me
- one poetic
- one stupid
- one logical
- one romantic
- one serious
- one easygoing
- one drunk
- one sober
- one to make all the decisions
- one to clean the flat
- one to mess it up
- one to cook
- one perverted me
- one holy me
- one vegetarian me
- one devoted to family
- one devoted to self
- one devoted to friends
- one bedouin, to go to any place i wish
- one bubbly me
- one couch potato me
- one secret agent me
- one superhero me
- one autistic me
- one quiet me
- one leftist me
- one rightist me
- one moderate me
- one greenpeace volunteer me
but alas, there is only one me. so i have to live with everything... in one body.
i have to meditate in the shower now.
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